Packing and Freaking Out

While packing my stuff, I was looking around at boxes in my room and asking myself..

How the heck did I get all these stuff??!

But more than the genuine baffleness (if that’s even a word LOL), I was reliving a lot of past memories. Like how the box of my grad school notes and textbooks reminded me of sleepless nights when 5-hour energy drink was my bestfriend. I look at the piles of books waiting to be read.. and the torn up ones that I read over and over again. As I was stashing documents from all my past jobs in a folder, I’m reminded of the times those same jobs brought out the best and worst in me. I’m realizing all the detours, all the memories and all the experiences led up to this point.

You know, it became plain as day. Sometimes God just shows us the next step because if we saw the big picture, it will freak us out. Like I said in my previous entry, never in my wildest dreams did I ever think of moving to OKC. I even had to look at the map to find out where Oklahoma was! I would never have imagined working for the Church (as a profession at least) and putting my ambitions in the back burner for now. Madison Avenue can wait.. obeying God can’t.

So I’ll let you in on a not-so-little secret: whatever you do and wherever you are, it’s all part of God’s plan. Each step, no matter how mundane, will build up to something great in the long term. And most of the time, it doesn’t make sense in the present. You might be in a dead-end job when you feel you can do better. You may be stuck in a city when you feel you’re better off somewhere else. You might be in a situation where you have to endure. Whatever the case may be, hold on to God. Each step will build up to something. I promise you whatever situation or circumstances you are in is NOT the end. One day this pain will make sense to you. One day all the pieces will fit together in a perfectly weird way. God’s a little weird like that.. through the world’s eyes at least. And one day, when it all comes to you, you’ll be freaking out too.. in a good way. I know I am. 😉